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Optimist

by Kevin Calaway

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Brian Sabblut Kevin Calaway is an absolute genius, pumping out banger after banger. Favorite track: Canadian Girlfriend.
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A new beginning, the ending's old A sadder story than I've been told Another cycle? Well, here we go Whatever glimmers might just be gold What kind of people are we to just give up when times are tough? Are we not men? We are Chumbawamba on this blessed day. I've spent enough of my life lying flat on my back to know just how easy it is to get back up. This is not the end for us. A new beginning, the ending's old A sadder story than I've been told Another cycle? Well, here we go Whatever glimmers might just be gold What's past is prologue.
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Water and oil, and cyanide? Get a load of this, why don't you! It's not as if life itself's a solution to the problems it presents itself. Bubbles and layers of trauma Heavy metal sinks, I tell you Soon you'll see a lighter side - when I'm down, it's only feathers to me I just float on top of it Float on top of it, baby Just float on top of it Just float on top of it, baby Baby, be buoyant The first eight clouds were a thrill ride Learning to fly is a lifetime commitment A splatter against the ground is better than a clipping of the wings Plummet and tubthump a handstand Or learn to lean and turn a cartwheel Soon, you'll learn to float as I - as deliberate as Zero and Gene I just float on top of it Float on top of it, baby Just float on top of it Just float on top of it, baby Baby, be buoyant
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I never thought I was that much to look at People would tell me I wasn't that great Am I nothing more than a kitsch piece of pop art That's good for a laugh but not selling upstate? I don't see the price you'd pay for me I never thought I was that good a person People would tell me I needed to change Am I an invention that nobody asked for For six easy payments of minimum wage? I don't see the price you'd pay for me But none of that mattered to the man with the frame An eye for a shutter and impeccable aim No one could capture this poor wretch's grace As the man who sold my face His fingers turned black as he wrestled the canvas A war of attrition, lopsided, it's true And unlike the smudge I've placed over my own life The work of the master seems flawless and pure Still, I can't see the price you'd pay for me The rain in the window is simple yet potent Nostalgic and tragic, poetic and sour And though beauty fades like a rainbow in sunshine Emotions like love can endure through the hours Still I can't see the price you'd pay for me But none of that mattered to the man with the frame An eye for a shutter and impeccable aim No one could capture this poor wretch's grace As the man who sold my face
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Sunlight shimmers down through my Venetian blinds It stripes the mattress where I'm resting my behind Half of my face warms up and my skin starts to shine What a wonderful world is this world of mine Glow while you may Seize the day's today before it's yesterday Glow while you can You don't have to be from Krypton to be a Superman Streets are clean and grass is green to my brown eyes Boys are riding bikes and girls are chasing butterflies Gone are smelly memories of garbage and flies What a wonderful world is this world of mine Glow while you may Seize the day's today before it's yesterday Glow while you can You don't have to be from Krypton to be a Superman I know it's hard to keep a perspective When the rain comes pouring down Tomorrow may be Armageddon But I don't plan on skipping town If we let ourselves get pushed around Or moan and groan and cry and frown It's you and me against the world But catch the wave and ride it out Stick sour lemons up your snout And you and me could be like birds of a feather Or planes in good weather Or Superman that oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh Glow while you may Seize the day's today before it's yesterday Glow while you can You don't have to be from Krypton to be a Superman
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Vietnam scarred the baby boomers Generation X had Reaganomics My tribe, the 90s, had the screen revolution Generation Z had Parkland But can you imagine PTSD before the age of three? These kids so young won't know what hit them Drinking the milk of Elsa and Spider-man Laceration Urination Reckless alcohol abuse and sexual grooming Johnny? Johnny? Yes, papa Can you imagine PTSD before the age of three? These kids so young won't know what hit them Drinking the milk of Elsa and Spider-man
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Brighter Now 05:05
It could have gone worse But then, it could have gone better I was stupid, I got hurt, but now there's just A pushup between me and where I want to be After weeks of the world's saddest stress dreams I'm ready to face another human face to face to face to face I was the king once and I can be again This is my throne and I'm gonna reclaim it I'm brighter now A little bit brighter now A little bit brighter now Or not as dark as I used to be I'm brighter now A little bit brighter now A little bit brighter now Or not as dark as I used to be Either I'm deaf or no one's talking to me Either I'm blind or no one's walking with me Either I'm dead or no one's helping me up I drink the dregs of a bitter cup Maybe I'm dumb 'cause no one's talking to me Maybe I'm lame 'cause no one's walking with me Maybe I'm dead 'cause they've left me to rest But I'm heading toward the light, I guess Call off the band, tell the florists they can suck it Things had got out of hand, but now it's just A battle between me and my own history After months of the smell of the garbage chute cutting The air of the hall outside my place to place to place I was the king and I will always be royal This is my throne and I will reclaim it I'm brighter now A little bit brighter now A little bit brighter now Or not as dark as I used to be I'm brighter now A little bit brighter now A little bit brighter now Or not as dark as I used to be Either I'm deaf or I stopped listening Either I'm blind or I don't notice anything Either I'm dead or maybe just dead inside Am I introverted or just drowning in my pride? Maybe I'm dumb 'cause I can't get it through my thick skull Lame 'cause I've had it up to here with my bull Dead 'cause this isn't really living, is it? Is it really living if it isn't really living? I'm brighter now A little bit brighter now A little bit brighter now Or not as dark as I used to be I'm brighter now A little bit brighter now A little bit brighter now Or not as dark as I used to be
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I'm the coolest kid at my junior high Nerdy and obese and I'm awkward and shy The other kids tell me that I'm dying alone And I won't be found for weeks, there'll be no calls on my phone They tell me no one'll ever love me and I say No way! I've got a Canadian girlfriend! No way! I've got a Canadian girlfriend! No way! She lives in Canada And you can't meet her Everybody's talking 'bout their dates to the prom The boys are talking up the girls with makeup on The other kids tell me that I'm bringing a doll A silicon or mylar belle of the ball They tell me one one'll ever have me and I say No way! I've got a Canadian girlfriend! No way! I've got a Canadian girlfriend! No way! She lives in Canada And you can't meet her Guess what? I became a rock star Not even the sk8er bois can touch me Guess what? I became a rock star They tell me that they really love me and I say No way! I've got a Canadian girlfriend! No way! I've got a Canadian girlfriend! No way! She lives in Canada And you can't meet her
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June Of a couple years ago I got on stage for you It was my very first rock show I saw you standing On the empty floor But you're a crowded individual You kept screaming for me And so I played You danced and sung I'll always remember you My mosh pit of one It's true Just a couple months ago I saw a hero of mine At the Whisky-A-Go-Go He saw me standing On the empty floor I was a crowded individual I kept screaming for me And so he played I danced and sung He held his mic out to my face And laughed like, "Where was everyone?" I knew the feeling I'd already done This kind of concert With a mosh pit of one And so he played I danced and sung And I became to him A mosh pit of one And so he played I danced and sung And I became to him A mosh pit of one
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Cut The Cord 04:07
Cut the cord The metaphorical cord Yes, I know there's not a real cord And there hasn't been one in a long long time Slam down the phone By which I mean, press the red button with your thumb And slide the phone in your pocket, grunting in exasparation Frustration Modern convenience has made inconvenience inconvenient And the fact that I could reach out at any time paralyzes So cut the cord The metaphysical cord That which used to be a real cord And yet, still is in the mind's eye Burn that bridge As if helicopters and aeroplanes were insufficient As if arson weren't a felony As if your every action weren't being monitored for quality assurance Modern convenience has made inconvenience inconvenient And the fact that I could cross back at any time paralyzes So cut the cord The apocryphal cord That may have been a real cord But no one's seen one in a long long time They told me "Adios" meant forever But what is forever? It's a small world, after all And if it's possible to be "after all" Then there is no forever, not ever Not ever, after all But still, we try to cut the cord
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We learned to dance from the dinosaurs Everything that we do must seem so primitive Let me tell you about our grandfathers They made it work, and now you're here
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The happiest day of my life hasn't happened yet The saddest day of my life is still yet to come I thought I was done with the angst, with the sadness I thought I was through feeling blue Until I heard that song... The one I used to love when I thought life was hell Life is not a linear struggle, it's not a steady grade Life's a cesspool and a puddle to jump in when it rains If I had a rewind button, I'd just as soon hit play And I won't listen to rebuttals, I will have my say So DJ! DJ, play that song! The one I used to love when I thought life was hell I always get it wrong Whoever wrote that song seems to get me so well The happiest day of my life was listening to that song Sometimes we make bad decisions, then we change our minds Sometimes we chase vain ambitions, then we waste our time If I were on television, would I fall in line? Or would I plead career revision, never satisfied? Oh, DJ! DJ, play that song! The one I used to love when I thought life was hell I always get it wrong Whoever wrote that song seems to get me so well The happiest day of my life was listening to that song The saddest day of my life is now come and gone I'm finally done with the angst, with the sadness I'm finally through feeling blue, and all thanks to you You and that awesome song The one I used to love when I thought life was hell I always get it wrong Whoever wrote that song seems to get me so well So DJ, play that song! The one I used to love when I thought life was hell I always get it wrong Whoever wrote that song seems to get me so well I need to hear that song
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released June 5, 2018

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Kevin Calaway Seattle, Washington

I could while away the hours conferring with the flowers, consulting with the rain - but who has time for that? I regulate my mood with musical catharsis and publish my diary on the internet for the whole world to hear, wearing my heart and my influences on my sleeve like a man who really needs to do laundry. ... more

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